time flies,world round,people changed.

Monday, May 24, 2010 8:49:00 PM

Insecure & Unsure

已经找不到理由不去爱你

Sometime i turn to be very paranoid , but i also had no idea why . I always hope time can really turn back to that very moment when you & me was just in love . Every single time with you seem so great , that kind of feeling just can't simply be describe by words . The time , you could get worry about me whenever i didn't reply your texts or pick up your calls . To the time , that you could whisper to me " i love you! " every single night before sleep . The moment that , i can't sleep & you could pat me til i'm asleep although you were tired . To the day , that you could turn morning to night become so sweet just only for you & me . To the night , that you hugging me so tightly that i could be stop breathing at anytime . & when i'm hungry in the midnight you could just simply wear a t-shirt&pants quickly went down to buy some finger-food for me. To the time that you could hold my hands tight , when we were walking down the path. There's so much , so much for me to say for me to remember . I know we had together already two years plus , things will changed , do you & i . But why do everything seem like changing so fast & so much? Now that , i hardly heard three words from you . Now , you often fall asleep before me . Everything changed that make me feel so insecure about your love & so unsure about our relationship. I don't know why , sometime we can seem so sweet , so sweet that people could envy us , but sometime can turn so cold that we could like friends . 三分钟热度 , i don't trust that being together long, then don't need to be sweet . You're a good boyfriend , but maybe as i said i wasn't a good girlfriend ? Maybe time passed , it means already passed . I only can hope tomorrow we could be better . Sometime , you make me so confused about all these things , i know myself that i can't lost you so right now i still holding on to wait for you to understand.

Sunday, May 23, 2010 11:02:00 PM

Speak out whenever you're unhappy .

Nowadays don't know why , even weekends i wake up quite early too. ); But when weekdays i'll feel super restless . Crazy* Help Juniorboy&JJ bath , & B bring me out for movie " Once a gangster " not really nice , a lil bit lame maybe it from action show become like comdy show lo . 6/10 , after movie when for dinner & here again back to B's house . Right now posting out a short post , alright about those photo is taken weeks ago . As , i'm too lazy right now to take my iphone cable & transfer those recently photo to laptop , will post out soon :D I wanna watch a horror show , " The Nightmare of eli " !!! Gonna pull B to watch with me , because he'll sure say " don't want la scare ley " . LOL okay stop here , i'll be posting at this time , because B is watching "Miami Ink" so having a good girlf accompany him . :D Stay tune ! Feel like meeting lynn & co out for fun !

Saturday, May 22, 2010 10:08:00 PM

NAVY OPEN HOUSE
Enjoyable day with Classmate &Mr. Jannif .

Yesterday went to Changi Navy Open House , with classmate & mr.jannif . HAHA* Our handsome teacher :D Firstly , we took our school bus to there , bloody bus . As if like we're on boat , shaking damn rabak . Make all of us feel like vomiting , first time took bus will feel like vomiting . & that bus driver , can even talking on phone while 29 lives on his hand , keep always sudden break ! *F hym* Finally after more than an hour , we reached . We went around at the Navy Open house . Took a small ship down to the sea ! ^^ I'm so excited manzx ! First time . LOL , Mr.Jannif seem to have cramp on his face . TeeHee * Enjoy alot . But when the time we going back to take school bus , those idiotic security of the Navy Base keep on stopping us & i saw one of the security name called Ganesan I suddenly miss my friend very much . Hope he living good up high . I still met some childish secondary girls , as one of them saying bad about my shoes . Just a vintage flower cover shoes ! They're simply jealous about it . I stare at them , yet they act looking another way . Childish kiddos* So i didn't find fault with them , we had been push & squeezing in the crowd for an hour then we took our school bus back to school . Super tired , so i wear my sunglasses in the bus & get a nap (;

After reach school , went over to my private school to take my exam slip . Is on the 1st of June , then i realised it fall on the same day same time my school exam . Faint* So i got to miss out one & wait for another chance ); Get my medicure&pedicure . (; & back to B's House . To wait for hym to be back from camp .

SBM PRESENTATION

Finally our SBM presentation had end on the thursday ! WOHOO* Had been cam-whore with my darlings . I <3 THEM . They make me smile in class all time .!
& tmr B bring me out for movie :D

Wednesday, May 19, 2010 5:26:00 PM

Trust given & Lies in return .

I had been stop blogging because i'm too lazy to blog about my life nowadays & edit those photo . (; Last Saturday brought Juniorboy & JJ back to my home as B need to go songkah , his aunt's husband's mother passed away . So i be a good girlf , take care of them & wait for him to be back . B's daddy ride me back home with puppies . B brought me Magnum ice cream when he came over to fetch me :D so sweet of him .

Then back to his house . Didn't manage to watch movie as by the time is already almost midnight . So B & i planned to watch on Sunday . & K.O after then ad 2am plus .

Sunday , B&i wake up very early , because of him lo ! ); Always he wake up , wil wake me up too ! Then watch tv a while and prepared to go Jurong point for movie "The Loser" . Not bad 7.5/10 . After movie we went to his aunt's house for majong . & back to his house . Had a big tiff due to something small but with lies , really piss-off . But he did apologise for the mistake he make . So we're back at one but feeling differently ); But i believed as long we loved each others , nothing matters .

Had been skipped lesson & school few days , to settle something for June . Sigh* My Accouting Exam coming really soon . Yet i haven start revising , every day come bck from school feel so sleepy already . Weekend no mood study also , sians 1/2 . This Friday my class going Navy open house , don't know for what fuck , shall i go? Alright stop here gonna get some nap soon , I only post out some photo , because too much already . Laughs* Will upload next post :D

Thursday, May 13, 2010 8:24:00 PM

Lesson taught ; don't look everything so importantly , or else you'll be the one get hurt .

Once again , happy 26months anniversary .

Today is baby&i anniversary , this time is our two years two months . Didn't celebrate , as i got school . & i believed there's no need every month anniversary celebrate , or else seem not that special anymore . Yesterday we had a small tiff , i really don't understand why now seem like i always the one giving & he is always the one taking . I believed we shall take turn give&take . I also had no idea where go wrongly , it seem always right at first , but it always turn so wrongly after i realised . My thinking is even we're together 123456789years & so on we shall treat each others like how we used to be . & not become that attitude like you don't wish to care!

Today we had fights again , not surprisingly . Every relationship come with ups&downs . Sometime good sometime bad , as long we back in one again . Seriously maybe i asked from you too much , or maybe you giving me to lil . When we are quarrelled this afternoon we sound so unhappy being together , i told you that " Your door always open for me , mine too . If you really unhappy to be with me , i also don't to stay you anymore , you can just say & leave. " I know that this sentence hurt you by seeing my text , but it hurt me more by typing it .

I really wish time can rewind by to that very moment when we just met , feel so great & so enjoying . No doubt to getting even closer step with you . But now , whenever i do i think once & twice . I think carefully , i don't wish at the very end all turn out so wrongly . Last time , you're always the one saving this relationship , & then my turn saving our relationship , now we both are not . You're tired of this & I'm sick of such thing .

Maybe we shall let go this time if not i hope we were be better . Or else say goodbye to our relationship .

Sunday, May 9, 2010 9:20:00 PM

Happy Mother's Day :D

Love you , my good-mummy !

JuniorBoy&JJ PhotoShot ,

HAHA . Back with their photo again ! As i left baby&i's photo on wayne's laptop . Nowadays spending time with my beloved baby , juniorboy&jj . They're a part of my life too . Junior always naughty boy always want me scold hym & he'll be super good boy . Want his mummy keep on shout ! *But he's cute , whenever i scold hym , he'll look sad & with watering eyes . & he scare i'll beat hym so whenever i scold he *chong ah* dhen sit dwn nicenice look ad me if not will try come lick me . Always my cute lil boy ! Had no idea why nowadays JJ feel so moody , didn't eat much also . Think he feel like going out & he need a "wife" . He keep anyhow think lo! *laughs* holding on my poor juniorboy's butt shaking ! See how naughty boy he's , will try take a photo of his bad acts ! teehee*

Baby & i as the same , yesterday had a bit tiff . He making me so frustrated . But afterall , forgive&forget . I believe whenever he done wrong once, he'll treat me even better after that second . I have the trust to hym .

Today went to farmway , walk ard with baby's dad , baby , juniorboy & jj . aww* i saw two sausage puppies was so adorable manzx! Look like twins !* & two mini yorkie so funny keep on trying to jump out from cage . Have that urge to buy one of them , seriously , but not to be greedy ! I'm so in love of dogs! Focus on my Juniorboy will do . He is baby&i's precious babyboy . They're so tired when on the way back hme . Sleep inside baby's dad car .

Will be posting baby&i photo soon .& next week will be baby&i 2years-2months anni & his mummy's bday . :D

Being a good girl today , home sweet home after that. Brought flowers for mummy & order dinner :D I'm not that bad girl yea . Baby now ish so enjoying his majong , whereby his poor girlf having headache right here ! Who cares? Brought a flower for his mummy too (god-mum). Gonna put on weight , eaten super lots food . Hereby, Wish all the mummy in the world , a wonderful mother's day . <3 love mummy

& lastly the photo junior standing , he trying to eat the bread on the table !

Tuesday, May 4, 2010 3:57:00 PM

I trust you ~

Some issues making me feeling so vexed ); I miss baby so much . Some photo ish over ad baby's com so only post JJ&Juniorboy photo . They look so cute isn't it?

Sunday, May 2, 2010 8:32:00 PM

The truth is always so painful & your lies is always so beautiful .

Wonderful weekend with Baby , Jeffery & Jessmin (;

Friday didn't went out so nothing to post (; Yesterday was so super wonderful day . Meet Jeffery&Jessmin ad JurongPoint with baby . Went to gv at first , yet Jeffery mess up booked Sunday ticket & not Saturday . So actually our first movie start ad 6plus yet changed to 8plus . aww* So will be 6plus "IP MAN2" & 8plus "IRON MAN2" . We went for dinner , & shop ard . & we went to Hagen Daz for some sweet stuff ! ICE CREAM * (; Aft then , just nice we went off to our movies! "IP MAN2" was super nice . (thumb up*) 9.5/10 watch with no regret (; Then after that we watch "IRON MAN2" only ending part whereby alot of fake iron man fight with Iron man dhen exciting (; (a lil upset*) 7.5/10 . When both movies finished already midnight 1plus , (power*) watch until my back bone so painful ! ); Took quite a few photo . So i could until upload those in my phone , as i brought my phone's cable to his aunt's house . For baby's phone photo will upload when i post again (;

Now ad his aunt's house . You al say ley? what we doing? majong session los ! (; hopefully baby&his mummy will be the winner of the day :D Saturday was labour day , but my school tmr having lesson as per-normal ! But secondary was like off lo ! So , i'll give myself a self-holiday man ! :D Alrights , now i'll b back to baby's side to support him & get some wind . Super hot!* Like sauna .!

8:01:00 PM

LESSON TAUGHT
elderly to our school (;

Last week , elderly come to our school . (; I was wondering how terrible will it be as i don't speaks hokkien well , so if i talk to them will like ... (*one duck&one chicken*) laugh . Confirm funny ! & i didn't get contact with elderly before . So i'm excited & worry . Our class prepared games , balloon perform & karaoke . Those elderly skin was so smooth los ! :D REALLY* haha then i was trying my best to talk to them (; Rusell is the person who do nice&pretty balloon . I was so in loved with the hello kitty balloon . Haha* Yet those elderly was in loved with the cat design (; & they're so cute . I swear , they keep on "meow meow! wo yao meow meow!" . After that we went to LT for singing , sadly if i know how to sing i cfm will sing for them (; Surprisingly , a female tcher surprise us with her hokkien song . & Russell was so nice , he make me a hello kitty balloon . & he make even bigger balloon for my friend (carmen*) (; scarly Russell ish in loved with her , that's why :DD & i push a weel-chair uncle to canteen to have his lunch , up the slope i was trying so hard to pull ! Almost let go , but i cfm wun let go ! Really heavy * A lesson taught , respect the elderly & help them . They're so cute !

** i know the last photo i look chubby**