I always pretend I'm happy .
Afterall , i really give up on being pretending . Is not that easy !
Today i realised I'm not that cup of tea for you!~
Nowadays i feel that i had been all the while pretending I'm happy . Sometime , i do thought that I'm really happy . But i was wrong ! In our relationship maybe we lack of respect . Which is the most important in a relationship . I swear i respect you at all time . No matter what , i told myself if i still want to carry on this relationship i must have basic respect for you . But everything seem to go so wrongly , the way you speak to me with a harsh tone . You told me you was in joking mood . Yes , few times i could believe it was just a way of joke . Differently , it's already so many times , that i don't remember how many times! I told you i don't like the way you speaks to me , yet you shout ad me " say you're like that , if cant accpect then too bad " . Yes , i can't . So i'll speaks the way you do !
People out there , sometime will feel jealous about us that we been together so long . But i believe every relationship there's a problem lie on . So i can't only blame you , but WE! There will be no relationship without any problem . I get pissed off the way you speaks to me , but i forgive&forget it . But you can't expect me forgiving you to talk to me this way at all time isn't it ? You told me you was tired & enough ? I think i deserve to say this more than you . I know no one is perfect , i accept this point . But i don't think your imperfect is the way you talk . Everyone do have attitude but not giving all time .
Sometime i feels so weird , you can get pissed off , why can't i ? I feel like tears out , but not this time i promise . Because this time you don't deserve me to tears for you . I know just now my words to harsh so I'm sorry but do you know where's your mistake ? Honestly i truly give up on you & this relationship . I know i don't bear to leave you , mostly the reason is our juniorboy , but i won't let him to control our relationship . I know he wants me to be happy too . This time i tears not because of you , is our Juniorboy . No matter what I'll bear with it till his first year old . I defiantly will .
I really so pissed off wanted ask you FUCK OFF ! You make me so hate you now . Maybe you guys will feel what i say was being childish but i really feel that . I won't relay on you from now onwards . All people comes & goes . One day , you were also be the one of them . I'll give in from now til 20th of July . );
You'll never be the one &
I'll never be that cup of tea for you ~
JJ& Junior ~ our babyboy
BAOBEI ,JOANNEWEE