Thursday, July 23, 2009 2:48:00 PM
Jon Wng , you left alots of memorise for me !
Even thought i know what i post , you won't come to my blog read or even you read it . You don't feel anything alrd . Every photo , we took at different places . I look over & over again ; those happy time that no one can feel only you & me . Last time , i always pull you to take photography with me . & you sometime don't wish to , now i understand why . The most we took , the most unbear we had to pass thru it . The more sad we were ,i believe not only me the one sad . I believe you do feel sad also , cze you're once that kind boyf cares abt me very much . I don't feel you really pamper me when i had you , til now when you no longer pamper me . I finally realised those way you pamper me , was flashing in my mind . Maybe now , your heart doesn't have me anymore . But the loves you given me , is clear . I can see in every ways & feel in any ways . The feeling you given me , that i trust no guys can give me .
Those happy time , at your hus overnight as like chalet 3days without going hme , i even pack my "all my stuffs" to your there . Simple life , went out tgt holding hand , buy dinner back hme eat tgt , watch television tgt , sleep tgt .As if i was like your real wife . I remembered , one time you working it show so late , i at your hus fallen asleepon your bed , wait&wait til you get back hme . Yet , you shouted at me " DEAR ! sleeping ahs? sayang i just come back make you wait so long " . I opened my eyes , i saw you with a smile . I smiled too . You told me at that moment ,you want me be your future wifey .
I always told sisters , that guy's words just listen & come out frm another ear . But whatever you told me i didn't , i trust you , i trust you were the one , the one wil walk down in church with me holding on my hands til old as what you told me . I don't believe those promises you given me was empty , cze you made me believe you so i choosen you . I didn't regert or think i was wrong to choose you , last time every night , whenever we hungry , we cooked maggie ,wil end up fighting , fighting to cook , to wash bowls ! & always i got to be loser , cze you always wans me to sit down there watch tv or just watch you to cook . & whenever eat finished , i was full of sweat you'll ask me go to your room rest as there's aircon & you alone sweating down there washing bowls . (;I always so much craving , a while craving go underwater world . & you really made it for me , you bring me to there before closing . As if whole underwater world only we , you always protect me dont allow any things to harm me . Crossing roads , you always hold me tightly , cze you know i always blur blur sotong , a while not careful almost fall or didn't see whether got cars or not .
The time whereby i think , i'll laugh out . When we sleeping soundly , you ! NAUGHTY** drip salive on my
fore head , haha . I was like "EEEEEEEEEE!!" then you stil kept on laughing . But ended up , i also drip salive on your neck haha ! & you anyhow said me purposely , no lor ! Even mickey alsogot your salive smell ! Those time you hug me tight , whenever you heard me " ah chew" during the night . You told me last year mybirthday wasn't happily pass , this year you wun let it happen again . But do my birthday that time ,you'll be there? Very soon , yours birthday&mine coming , thought of giving you surprise . But everything end up so suddenly ! Some said i control you too much ? Did i ? Mayb , but i can let you do what you wan as long you're back .But that impossible le bahs . I really wish , you could send me msg " dear i love you " . sigh* Now you gone , i counting every steps you go ~ );
JJ& Junior ~ our babyboy
BAOBEI ,JOANNEWEE