Friday, July 31, 2009 1:07:00 PM
SPAMMERS JUST MAKING MY BLOG ALIVE
i had been stop posting for a period of time alrd . sorry reader , as nowadays i'm so tired & restless . went hme aft sch & went off to bed . didn't get the chance to sit in front my com for even a min ; winks* spammers are making my blog so so alive . dots* & the funniest thing was that all spammers IP ADDRESS was same ! DATOU's , ZHENGHUA HARRY's , AHMAD's & IMA's . Their four IP ADDRESS was same , 164.78.252.57 ! Jitao make me laugh lo . That ZHENGHUA harry , i nbr heard before lo . So if you stil viewing my blog right ? you come find me directly instead ? Cze i dont even know who the fuck are you . laughs* & DATOU ? he said was fcuk by a dozen of guys in chalet , i didn't even go chalet with anyone since i primary sch i went with relative . Why don't you said i get fcuked by thousand or million of guys ? You showing me you very brainless . Alright , i didn't get piss off abt what they trying to commenting me . Later gg sentosa with friends . Hope to enjoy later on :D i shall go prepare alrd . Life are stil living on .Labels: cm'on dislike me n fuck off yea
Monday, July 27, 2009 3:48:00 PM
I'm trying hard to carry a smile !
Nowadays , i was trying hard to smile alrd . So if my photo was with a ugly smile or a fake smile , don't comments & say . I believe tmr wil be better & more better going on ! Yesterday went to art park , to meet Janice&co . All of them , XiaoSiong , AhSiong , DaXiong , ZhiWen , Tony , Edward , Janice , Eileen , XiPing , Milly & Yvonne . Play basketball , winks* Finally only art park friends tgt , no mre EXTRA people ard . (laughs*) If you think is you , then it'll be you dhen . Before gg art park was ad Janice&Eileen's the hus took some photo . I super like the first photo with eileen ! Went to safra aft that by AhSiong's work lorry . & home sweet home aft that . Nowadays , bitch like to at my back said me & complain abt me . (dote*) dont let me know again , & i'll show you how bitchy i can be than you .Being a girl , don't carry a black heart with intention . & you'll have no friends . Super sot blogger ; unable for me to upload those photo & i have to went to photobucket slowly upload & put here . Made til now , as i'm so sleepy wanna fall aslp alrd ! So i gg to my cozy bed sn ! Goodbye readers (;Labels: Being a girl, don't carry a black heart with intention . and you'll have no friends
Saturday, July 25, 2009 5:42:00 PM
NIGHT LIFE !
Yesterday suddenly friend wanna bring me out ; as i thought cancel at first alrd . Friend came fetch me first ' i was hurry myself to prepared hao before they reached . Luckily i managed leys ! (laughs*) & we will like half way lost whether how to fetch akac . After fetched akac , went off to jurong point went to toilet first & we went to fetch someone , which made us wait super long lo . SUPER PEK CHEK** Then we went to geylang , say out no one believe ! IT WAS MY FIRST TIME WENT THERE SIAL ! damn happy lo ; get my experience to go there . But we didn't get off the car , i also got see some "LADIES" standing out there . (winks*) Then we went to east coast , (sigh*) SAN XIN DI! STUPID FRIEND ; drive car super dangerous thought he park haohao liaos dhen my leg get off dhen car suddenly move . The wheel stil go over my slipper & my leg skin ! My anklet broken ' which my ex's mummy brought , (dots*) fate end liaos ma . SUPER PAIN lo , got blood sial . SCARY** Then we went to eat mac ; some malay guys talk to akac&me said we both ish real sisters . (dots*) after eaten some seaweed fries , akac&me saw ROCK FEVER MACHINE ! HIGH LIAOS LO ! we run up & play . WAS CHEAP MAN ; FIFTY CENTS PER PLAY ! BUT what the fuck was those button super hard , must beat super hard then can . Akac&me , was like crazy lo . Hands damn pain ! Then we went off to rounding , blow wind & back to safra . But end up friends go off first while akac&me playing lan . Enjoyed ytd ! ;) will have next time again !Labels: i heard wind told me i had let go you mre alrd :D
Friday, July 24, 2009 2:03:00 PM
SEXY OR CHEAP ?
Does every girl take photo must show out half of their breast then called as sexy ?
To me , i feel she showing me she was cheap than anyone ! laughs* what you guys think ? Tag me as reply (;
below this link is i find no where , & saw those "sexy" photo . NO harm just a comment ! not referring anyone (;
http://irrevocably-inlovee.blogspot.com/
Thursday, July 23, 2009 2:48:00 PM
Jon Wng , you left alots of memorise for me !
Even thought i know what i post , you won't come to my blog read or even you read it . You don't feel anything alrd . Every photo , we took at different places . I look over & over again ; those happy time that no one can feel only you & me . Last time , i always pull you to take photography with me . & you sometime don't wish to , now i understand why . The most we took , the most unbear we had to pass thru it . The more sad we were ,i believe not only me the one sad . I believe you do feel sad also , cze you're once that kind boyf cares abt me very much . I don't feel you really pamper me when i had you , til now when you no longer pamper me . I finally realised those way you pamper me , was flashing in my mind . Maybe now , your heart doesn't have me anymore . But the loves you given me , is clear . I can see in every ways & feel in any ways . The feeling you given me , that i trust no guys can give me .
Those happy time , at your hus overnight as like chalet 3days without going hme , i even pack my "all my stuffs" to your there . Simple life , went out tgt holding hand , buy dinner back hme eat tgt , watch television tgt , sleep tgt .As if i was like your real wife . I remembered , one time you working it show so late , i at your hus fallen asleepon your bed , wait&wait til you get back hme . Yet , you shouted at me " DEAR ! sleeping ahs? sayang i just come back make you wait so long " . I opened my eyes , i saw you with a smile . I smiled too . You told me at that moment ,you want me be your future wifey .
I always told sisters , that guy's words just listen & come out frm another ear . But whatever you told me i didn't , i trust you , i trust you were the one , the one wil walk down in church with me holding on my hands til old as what you told me . I don't believe those promises you given me was empty , cze you made me believe you so i choosen you . I didn't regert or think i was wrong to choose you , last time every night , whenever we hungry , we cooked maggie ,wil end up fighting , fighting to cook , to wash bowls ! & always i got to be loser , cze you always wans me to sit down there watch tv or just watch you to cook . & whenever eat finished , i was full of sweat you'll ask me go to your room rest as there's aircon & you alone sweating down there washing bowls . (;I always so much craving , a while craving go underwater world . & you really made it for me , you bring me to there before closing . As if whole underwater world only we , you always protect me dont allow any things to harm me . Crossing roads , you always hold me tightly , cze you know i always blur blur sotong , a while not careful almost fall or didn't see whether got cars or not .
The time whereby i think , i'll laugh out . When we sleeping soundly , you ! NAUGHTY** drip salive on my
fore head , haha . I was like "EEEEEEEEEE!!" then you stil kept on laughing . But ended up , i also drip salive on your neck haha ! & you anyhow said me purposely , no lor ! Even mickey alsogot your salive smell ! Those time you hug me tight , whenever you heard me " ah chew" during the night . You told me last year mybirthday wasn't happily pass , this year you wun let it happen again . But do my birthday that time ,you'll be there? Very soon , yours birthday&mine coming , thought of giving you surprise . But everything end up so suddenly ! Some said i control you too much ? Did i ? Mayb , but i can let you do what you wan as long you're back .But that impossible le bahs . I really wish , you could send me msg " dear i love you " . sigh* Now you gone , i counting every steps you go ~ );
Wednesday, July 22, 2009 12:44:00 PM
Learn to let go , might be happier ?
Had been sick for quite a few days , having high fever , cough , flu , headache & back bone ache . Thought i kana H1N1 but sadly no . (dots*) Thanks lynn , my blur gilf accompany me go see doc . (; I first time fever til 39.6 almost 40 degree ! Scary* Had been all the way rest at home . Today morning i found out something , a FAITHFUL guyalso can become a SICKO JERK so fast . He given me those blooding excuse that he break off with me cze his kidney problem & want to be single . & said he owe me alot that he know he couldn'treturn to me . Those words are rubbish , if he said was frm his bottom of heart he wun do this type of things .But i shall said thanks for hym doing this type of things , at least let my heart snak til the end . & i'll try my very best to give up . Such a huge disppointment frm you , aft broke off with you , i told all my sisters . Even through is you broke off with me , but you're such a wonderful boyf i ever have . So good & nice to girlf , lastly faithful too .Guess whatever i said was wrong
Sunday, July 19, 2009 6:33:00 PM
CONFIDENT
He was sick now , having high fever ); I really wish to go find hym & hug hym . But i just lack of confident to do that , why ?! I scare he'll push me away , I scare he'll do something that wil hurt me . I wish i can beside hym right now sayang hym til he slp . Like how last time i was . But now stil can ? Shall i hold on my confident go find hym ? Or shall i not ? I didn't eat for alots of days , friends ard me saying i become thinner . Scolding me & asking me to eat . I didn't intend to diet but just no wei kou & no mood !Labels: when wil i have confident
Saturday, July 18, 2009 3:12:00 PM
DREAM THAT WIL NEVER COME TRUE !
Today i dream that ytd night he&i was alrd patched , & today gonna meet hym . While i dreaming of this , i stil smiling . But when i open my eyes ; i realised it's just a dream . A dream that couldn't be true anymre ); Cze everyone said dream & reality is totally opposite . Sadly , i had dream of this means , we couldn't be back anymre bahs . Boy , i really need ue alots . You wun noes , without you , how much i had changed & my life . I didn't eat only drink . Didn't slp well , i always trying so hard to make myself super tired , so that i lie down on bed i could fall asleep at that time so that i wun anyhow think );Labels: a dream that will never be true le
Friday, July 17, 2009 1:34:00 PM
BIG AFFECT TO ME ..
Loss 3kgs , even thought it's not more . But i didn't eat quite a number of days , i only drink to fill up my stomach . No mood to eat , hungry but whenever i saw food i no wei kou . Now no more hym ard , no one bring me eat . Last time whenever with hym , always a few hrs jiu go eat le . I hope you'll be back , my dear boy !Labels: ); im really very sad
Thursday, July 16, 2009 5:15:00 PM
WAITING ..
Didn't post for very long time , cze i wasn't have any mood to post or rather say that i dont even have anything to post out . Now that we wasn't tgt , i feel so uncomfortable , every single things i have to used to be alone to do it , alone playing games , alone watching tv , alone waiting in the dark road , alone sleep . Last few days was really so hard for me , even now stil are . I alone waiting for cab to go hme , no cab & when i on cab i felt so lonely , last time always with hym & his cousin ); But now ? Ytd saw his mummy , so sweet of her , she said alots alots of touching words to me . She told me that she told hym " that she only wans yonglian & she dont let hym bring any girls to let her see again & she even topped up cotton wool for me in the toilet " cze i always got to wash away my make up & her mummy help me topped up , but sadly do i have the chance to use it again ? no ! ); His mummy really treat me really well , she just like my mummy . She asked me not to give up on this son , give hym time to think & he'll be back . She said that he stil loves me , just that cze he anyhow think abt his health problem . I'll not give up , but even i noes there's no hope alrdy . But i believe there's miracle ! Just now went for N level oral , whatthefuck was super hard . Sigh* i hope he'll be fine & i really miss his closeness to me ); how i wish i can hug you noe boy ); Even thought waiting is a lonely & cruel , but i believe i cans pass thru those lonely ways & cruel time to get you back .
Labels: waiting for you is worth );
Monday, July 13, 2009 5:26:00 PM
ENDING OF FAIRYTALE
Even thought today was our one year four mths ; bud sadly we cant celebrate anymre for this anni & others anni . You had left me , but with a wonderful memorise . Those sweet & unforgettable memorise . It's a hurt thing to let you go . But i hope you cans be much more happier than now , if letting you go , does make you happy . Why not right ? I let you go , wasn't cze i don't loves you anymre , ish that i too loves you , too loves alrdy so i hope you to be happier than me . You force yourself to stay cze you scare i give up on everything , yes my life now had back like past , colourless , meaningless alrdy . I had totally changed to another myself . You ish all i need , but now i know there's no more hope in us alrdy . how much i cant bear , i stil have to bear . I never regret being with you , cze all those time was really sweet & happy . I remember every single things , everywhere the place we were there before . Now no one pat me til slp , no one remind me to eat when hungry , no one remind me to drink water when my lips was so dry , no one hug me when i'm cold , no one protect me frm harm , no one pamper me anymre , no one catch mickey&minine for me anymre , no one bring me go eat what i craving , no one hold my hand to aross road anymre . Wondering wil i stuck in the middle of road , cze i alrdy so used that you hold me thru . You ask me to be strong , i had tried , but my tears stil cant stop drip . How i wish i could hate you than loves , but i cant do it . I stil loves you alots alots . But ish alrdy not impt le , i hope you cans find a better girl to be your girlf . All those stuffs you given me was so much that no matter i look at where in my bedroom , i'll think of you ... I wish to hold you & ask you stay , but you won't le ...
Three more days N level Oral , i don't have confident anymre . My brain was totally empty . Labels: goodbye my love boy ...
Sunday, July 12, 2009 9:25:00 PM
NIGHT LIFE .
Sunday
Just came back hme at 8plus , not long . He now at song kah with bros . (sians*) tmr ish our one year - four mths . But think no celebrate le bahs , he also dont bother le ); sad !
Saturday
Go to safra AGAIN , but went to watch "ice age3" before go to safra . It's a nice & funny show . My weekend had alrdy become night life . (sigh*) i'm so tired pretend , no one knows how much i pretending ); it so hard .
Friday
Meet hym aft school , but i went hme . Rot til very late dhen meet hym , cze i think he also dont wish i meet hym so earlier bahs . (sigh*) Ard i prepared finished , is alrdy 4plus almost 5 . Cab over to his hus , dhen rot lo . Meet Janice & co . Went to safra , til next morning 6am . (faint*) Went to his hus , aft wash up i fall asleep when the sec i just lie on his cozy bed .
Friday, July 10, 2009 3:07:00 PM
Love me who i'm ..
Just now when i just came back frm school , he called my phone . I was so delighted ! He call me ! (winks*) He asked me to call hym with my hus phone so i did it . & he asked me whether wans go where ; but we'll be meeting Janice&Edward at nine pm . He was like "huh?! so late " no choice , they always night life .He asked me to prepare slowly , dhen go over his hus meet hym . But right now , i stil haven prepare a single thing yet . (dots*) But i think he had fallen asleep liaos lo . (sians*) hack care lahs . I gg off to prepare & just went to his hus liaos lo . Bye ! Hope later we'll be back like past . sigh*
Thursday, July 9, 2009 7:55:00 PM
LETTING GO ?
No school for me today , was so tired too . After so many days , i think , i cried , i pray . Nothing had go back to past ; tired for asking , tired for saying , tired for thinking . He stil intend to put tattoo , but as he wish . I won't say a single word abt it anymore . As his friend said was right , just tattoo what also wun die . Body was belonged to hym , pain also he suffer , life was his own too . He don't even take my words anymore , so no point i say so much alrdy . Cze now was totally different . (sigh*) tmr wil be meeting hym for movie ? "ice age3" ); hope tmr wil be a happy day & enjoyable day for us . Im wondering whether wil he treat me coldcold , or just like hack care ? Mayb i was thinking too much .
2:53:00 PM
SING SONG
Last sunday , midnight went to safra kbox with eileen , yvonne & lynn . Sing til 3am plus , the day wil be the last day i take photo with smile le bahs ); sigh*
Wednesday, July 8, 2009 4:09:00 PM
AKAC's overall picture !
finally can be posted out !
First take : haven prepare & maomao snap shot !
2nd take : Formal ?
3rd take : twists!
4th take : birthday girl special .
3:46:00 PM
Never before
pic i took long ago .
I had never before so lonely , so alone . Even through we had been getting a bit better than the day before yesterday which we broke off . But i cans feel your loves to me wasn't that much le . Your heart like having a wall , that i longer cans look thru it & understand you . Suddenly we were just like a stranger to one another . You own self also don't know why you'll become like that , it was so sudden to me . This friday you said go watch ice age3 , as i asked to . I hope this friday wil be a day to let us be better . (sigh*) My mind was kept flashing again & again , our past . Thinking over & over again , my tears dripped . Heart was so pain , the pain which unable to describe in thousands or millions sentence . What can i do to get you back like past ? & loves me like how you were ? i only cans pray ...Labels: yi ge ren yong gan de xia qu ma ?
Tuesday, July 7, 2009 5:22:00 PM
UPSET
Yesterday i cried alot for you ; i didn't blame that you hurt me & made me cry . But your words really hurt me alots ! Guess i cried too much , the ball inside my eyeball had grow bigger ; doc said if grow bigger had to oprea & remove it alrdy ! (scare*) If blind how ? If blind i cant see anything alrdy liaos lo . In class i cant take it to read all those msg you sent so heartbroken . & i cried again sigh* I just want you stay beside me nothing else . Really ! Please be back likt past .
Monday, July 6, 2009 5:44:00 PM
Fairytale
our love was just like a fairytale . Filled with alots of happy moment that we could remember clearly in our mind . But fairytale always ended with a heart ache sence , but for ours also ? I admit i wasn't a perfect girlf for you , but i never ever give up to try . But after so many times i tried , i stil fail to do so . My bad stil unable to be cover by my good . I'm a lucky girl , to found til you . A boyf that so faithful , that don't go drink with brothers , don't go clubbing , you don't even go out with brothers . Just to accompany me .But now you had changed , you told me too . & i'm only cans blame my stupid mouth to said all those stupid words , and now we really separated . You told me you don't wish to hurt me , but you now was hurting me . You said you cant promise me you could change back like past , cze you don't wish to break a promise . I didn't want your promise too , but at least you could try to change for the sake of me better than nothing bahs . Your love to me was fading off , slowly i wasn't the one you loves . But no matter what i wish to say a million of thank to you , for all the things you did for me & brought for me what i craved . Maybe our one year - three months relationship wil just ended at this moment , sadly one more week wil be our one year - four months , what i said was like really come true . I told you wondering whether we stil cans celebrate tgt for our one year four months anni , you ask me not to think much . But now , mayb cant le . I was so stupid lo ! I stil even threaten you i want die , but really i could do this one day . Cze there's no more you , think people who reading this post wil said i stupid , but i think it's worth for me to do that . So if anyone want to say me stupid just do it . He told me i was a good girlf amoung all his ex , no i don't think so . Everything had gone , there is no more u-turn ?Labels: the most heart ache thing
Wednesday, July 1, 2009 7:44:00 PM
FRAGIL
Getting better for a while , turn back to bad again . (sigh*) Last time , everynight without i ask hym to , he'll auto call me said " goodnights my dear i love you & miss you alots mucaks ! " but now ? it been so long i heard that frm you my dear . You just always tell me you're tired in msg , wanna go rest . But at least you just call me say " dear im gg rest , you go rest if tired too . love you " i'll also be very happy & your words wil brighten my day . Is it so hard for you to do that ? i'm the one that loves you no matter what happened , when you run frm army , you told me i'm the reason you living on , you're my reason too . You know i loves you so much & need you so much , that's why i could cry for you that much too . Last time , we'll everyone envy on to . But now we no longer , you might think i asked too much frm you , but i didn't means you was at fault & i didn't means you wasn't good , to me i dint remember what bad you done , in my eyes i only saw what good you done for me . Maybe our fate really come to the end ? (sigh*) I have been crying two days , i'm so sad . No one can understand my feeling right now . This afternoon , i aske dhym one day if i ask hym to put my name as tattoo he will mahs , thought he'll say no he dont wans regert but he replied he will . But guess no chance to let this happen alrdy );
Labels: let us be back cans?
JJ& Junior ~ our babyboy
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