Friday, June 5, 2009 12:48:00 PM
DEPRESSION
yesterday night wasn't a good night to me , tears dripping down my cheeks again & again . crying like a small girl , no one knows . yesterday night talk to auntie , both of us cried with broken heart . we wish he'll be alright & get down pest or transfer , i pleased god to help as i willing to exchange anything for it . friends , sisters ard me asking me not to think much , how i wish i can be happy like past , but i cant stop my mind thinking things that abt hym ! i'm tired in love world , sometime i wish to leave , sometime i cant bear to leave . But no matter what happen to hym , i'm not leaving . if one day there is no hym , there is sure no me too . i need hym more than anything , how impt to me i don't know how to describe it . He like this sentence "laugh now , cry later" , i miss the time before we get tgt , we chatted in phone more than six hours , you could tell me all the jokes you had , making me laugh , i miss the time we were at genting , a moment that i'll not forget , being with you so long , whenever i go the place i'll think of you ); No you , i feel so empty , don't feel like going anywhere . No one remind me , that my lips so dry & force me to drink water . No one remind me , to eat when hungry & force me to eat more . No one remind me , not to sleep late . No one help me to cover blanket while sleep . No one pad me til sleep . Yesterday night , i didn't slp well , all the way i was praying & praying , tearing til i fall asleep . Today wake up , my eyes was like ... Double eyelid was so thick , as ytd i cried too much . I wish someone can made me sleep forever , forever don't need to see this world , to see anything . Will he listen to me ? NO! definitely no , one day you won't break down , i think i'll be the one break down .. How i wish time can go back & stop at the very moment when we'll happy tgt . Life is full of regret . Life is full of obstacle ! Please make hym back like past !Labels: fate ish something you couldn't stop anymore .
JJ& Junior ~ our babyboy
BAOBEI ,JOANNEWEE