was taking ad genting ferry wheel -

currently 5.17pm
yesterday sayang told me that even he find the officers ;
telling them the locker was spoiled . they said " they' isn't in charger of that "
FUCK ! roll eyes* whad the meaning of they no in charger of that ?
last night chatted with sayang longer . i really miss hym so much !
whenever i heard his voice , my heart feel like sinking .
he told me today he will be start training ' bud was raining all day .
wondering how was he now ' doing fine or not .
last night , i cant get to slp ' no matter how tired was i .
i don't know why , it seen so hard for me to get rid of hym in my mind .
last night i from eleven plus , see seventy hundreds- sixty seven photo till
one plus ' bud i still cant made myself sleepy .
so i try played psp to made myself sleepy ; if these night he'll be there .
he used to pat me in sleep ' until teo plus almost three am i started sleepy .
bud when i off psp , i still don't feel like sleeping. kept on thinking of hym ;
till three plus i then fall asleep . hais ! last night i really felt that he pamper me alots
at all times , he really treat me very good
even sometime we do quarrel or made me angry .
bud i cans feel he holding this relationship tight & serious .
i feel like dying ' dark circle grown darker , feeling weak ,
lonely , boring , meaningless .i cant sleep well , eat well & even play well .
fuck ! even late night i was hungry there's no one cooking maggie
for me while i bathing anymore . today eleven plus i wokeup again '
when prepared meet up meihua to school collect our reserved books ;
bud ohmfg ! when we reached school , school bookshop was closed .
after that cabby back home ; do pedicure for myself . it turn out nice '
i'm contented with it . bud not nicer than how sayang done it for me .
today gonna stay ad home whole day ; not to let
sayang worry about me . & i promised whenever i go out i'll inform hym
i with who & surely came back home before nine pm ; unless working .
not adding on burden for hym ' . ad first i don't treat any guys as i feel
almost all cant give me words for me to trust . bud he is different ;
he always know whad i want & he understand me alots .
whenever i angry he just need to see my face . dots !
i miss the time hugged hym to sleep ;
& lastly meijiao i'm sorry not i don't wanna accompany you
on your birthday just that he finally booking out after eleven days '
so i wished to accompany hym more . i hope you understand '
okays stop here . later night then update again ' i miss seeing his smile .






currently 10.20pm
just talked to sayang a while ' hais . he sound alright ' he said not that tough only kept on exercise . glad to heard that ' bud sadly was that there the clock earlier than us by ten mins ! FUCK ! whenever i talked to hym in phone ' i don't bear to said goodbye . as now differently from last time , last time i cans want hym call me anytime bud now everyday i needed to waited for eleven hours to hear his voice again . & it kept routine . he ask me to be guai ' i'll de . call me not to be sad whenever he got free time will call me ; & he missed me very much . thanks JIALI for your concern ' read your post already . sayang just now told me ' that their officers said when they book out will be wearing uniform & they cant smoke out & hold girlfriend's hand wile they wearing army uniform . DOTS ! smoke that one ' i understand wher got cant hold girlfriend's hand de ? sayang said he don't care ah ' will just hold & hug me when see me ! heihei ._. will try sleep early today ; cze tmr my real blood sister gonna pull me out for shopping ad town ! surely legs turn jelly again . nights you guys .

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